I am being very honest when I write this post...
I can't shake the feeling of, "When is something bad going to happen?" I realized this week that I'm tired of these random, negative, scared thoughts. I'm supposed to be enjoying every single second of this pregnancy that I've prayed for, so I'm now praying for God to take those negative thoughts away forever!
I know it's Satan trying to ruin this joyful time and it makes me angry that these thoughts have arrived when I know God has shown himself so clearly by giving us this precious baby.
When I was struggling to get pregnant for those 2 years, I dreamed of what it would feel like once there was a baby inside me. I could only imagine the happiness I would finally feel!
Please don't get me wrong...I FEEL SO HAPPY...but these stupid negative thoughts keep popping-up in my mind. But all that's over now because I'm sick of it and really don't want to feel this way for the next 20 weeks as we wait for Preslee to get here!
Yesterday, my sweet 88-year-old Papaw was looking at Prelee's 3D pictures and said, "You show me someone who doesn't believe in God after seeing that miracle and I will show you an idiot!" We laughed at his intensity, but he's exactly right!
God has answered many prayers for this miracle baby and I'm determined to push Satan away any second he tries to make me experience worry or doubt about God's plan.
I just felt the need to share these thoughts and get them off my chest and I know I'm not alone when it comes to these feelings. I recently spoke to two of my best friends who have felt these same emotions. I hate that Satan can try to weasel his way into something that God should be getting all the glory for!
So if you're also having these thoughts, even if they involve a different aspect of your life, I'm asking you to stand up against Satan with me and PRAY those negative thoughts away!! Please feel free to comment if you can relate so we can all pray for each other!
Finally, here's a POSITIVE note... I JUST ORDERED HER CRIB!!! I can't tell you how excited I am that it's finally MY turn to pick out a crib! I've looked at them for nearly 3 years and dreamed of which one would be in our house one day! Picking out nursery items is one of the things I've looked forward to the most and I'm going to ENJOY every minute of this from now on!! :)
*Sneak peek at the first item for Miss Preslee's nursery!*
Hope everyone has a GREAT Thursday!