2.28.2012

Dreaded day!

I don't dread seeing these awesome co-workers today...
But I REALLY DREAD (that is an understatement) NOT seeing my precious, most beautiful, cutiepatootie baby girl!
I am so blessed to have been able to be home with her for these first 13 weeks. And I am just going back to work 2 days a week. Thankfully I don't work long hours, I really like my job and I totally trust who is keeping her! But it's just going to be so hard to walk out the door! I know it will be good for me to be back at work and have some adult conversation during the day, but I could use some prayers today and Thursday when I have to leave her to go back to work! :(

18 comments:

Emily said...

Aww, she is SO adorable! Sending prayers your way! :)

Shannon Sentences said...

Good luck! I can tell you that (i) the anticipation is worse than the actual first day and (ii) it does get better. But I'm 3 weeks in, and to be honest, it's still a struggle. It sounds like you have a good set-up with only 2 days a week, and liking her childcare makes a HUGE difference, but it's still hard. Prayers and thoughts your way!

Heather said...

Julee, I couldn't imagine what you're going through, or feeling. I wouldn't want to leave either! I hope that the transition back to work a few days a week will be good for you, and one that you'll learn to love again :) Like you said, you have wonderful co-workers, and awesome clients! I'm sure you'll be back in the swing of things in no time...Best Wishes!!

Megan said...

I agree with Shannon that the anticipation is actually worse than the actual leaving. I had dreaded it and dreaded it and then when i got to work and felt ok I was like ummm this is weird. I think you will find that you like the setup. I do like working part time BUT just as with anything there will be good days and bad days. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to that can relate! I'll be praying for you Thursday morning!

Sara said...

Going back to work brings an entire new flood of emotions:( Trust me that in time you will adjust and not feel like crying as you drop her off or leave for work. I commented one time that for some reason I feel it is worse for Mom's that struggled with fertility issues. Maybe because after waiting so long the weeks at home go by quickly and you don't want to miss one second! I know it is still hard for all Mom's but the sting seemed to be worse for me than most of my friends. I will be praying for you in the coming weeks as you adjust to this new normal with work!

Mary Virginia said...

I can't imagine how hard it must be to leave, but I'm praying that your days away make the moments you get to spend at home even sweeter!

Nancy said...

Praying for you today! I know it's so hard! I remember crying my eyes out when I did that...but your are right, it will be so good to get out for a little while & good to be around people ~ although it does make the time so precious when you are home!!
Have a great day!

Tammy said...

Awwwe, she is precious and I'm sure is in great hands !!! It's tough leaving her I'm sure. I had to go through it and everything worked out perfectly !!! Prayers headed your way !

sl said...

She is so adorable!! Love those big eyes and all that hair. She is beautiful just like her mom. Prayers for you as you return to work. I remember that same feelings but I returned full time to steacher. So glad you can wrok only 2 days.

Sara said...

Oh Juliee that must be so hard. I have no idea what that would be like but just thinking about it i know would be hard. thinking and praying for you and even your sweet adorable Presslee hope that the transition goes well for everyone.

Randi said...

Thinking of you right now and sending prayers your way!! good luck!

Amy Holmes Hottel said...

I agree with those that say it gets better. It took about 1 week for me get in the "I can do this, and like it mode!" I went in the office and cried all day the first day. Good Luck!

Mere said...

Julee, she is just precious! I hope you have an easy transition as you settle into a new routine. Praying for you!

Cory said...

Aww! I didn't want to go back so bad that when the time came... I couldn't do it. Even when I finally HAD TO when my first was 1 1/2 I cried for the first week. And I was only working part time, and leaving her with my mom. Ha! I am a hairstylist too. I felt like everyone was pushing me to let them hold her, let them take her, etc. etc. I had waited to be a mom for so long that I didn't want to let anyone hold her, and I wanted to just be with her all by myself! Ha! With the second one it is much easier. I feel more fulfilled. Now, I need to go back to work again, and would like to find good child care, but don't like the options in my area. Haha! :) Good luck!

Cory said...

Aww! I didn't want to go back so bad that when the time came... I couldn't do it. Even when I finally HAD TO when my first was 1 1/2 I cried for the first week. And I was only working part time, and leaving her with my mom. Ha! I am a hairstylist too. I felt like everyone was pushing me to let them hold her, let them take her, etc. etc. I had waited to be a mom for so long that I didn't want to let anyone hold her, and I wanted to just be with her all by myself! Ha! With the second one it is much easier. I feel more fulfilled. Now, I need to go back to work again, and would like to find good child care, but don't like the options in my area. Haha! :) Good luck!

Sarah-Anne said...

I am worry I didn't see this earlier but I am happy to see your other bloggy peeps prayed for you...I will do the same on Thursday!

Brooke said...

Julee- I can totally relate! I bawled like a baby leaving her with MY MOM the first day back. I'll be praying for you-it's hard! Just be thankful you are only going back part time- my 40+ hour work weeks are KILLER! Preslee is so cute- I can't wait to meet her one day!

Ashley Fisher :) said...

Will definitely lift you up!!!

She is SUCH a doll baby!